Important, meaningless, strange animal

Visual expression is my way to bring the mystery of life visible for all of us. Colors keep endlessly inspire me and this work gives me deep joy, sense of fulfillment and meaning. For me, painting is quite like a childish play. Sounds like little fairies dancing, doesn't it? Sometimes it might be that way, too. There are some exceptions, though...

Creativity is a strange animal.

When I was travelling my way to understand my role here as an artist, I did not even realise, that people have been written books about these two friends: Creativity & Fear. It sounds oh so weird! Gosh, I did not have a slightest clue, that the same issues I struggled with were UNIVERSAL, they were not MY issues at all. Every single creative person on this planet goes through them.

I could go on about this for some days, but the most relevant thing might be this:

If I show you who I really am - will I be accepted? (or will they burn me alive?)

Some creative people give that fear a little too much space, they are the ones who fill their drawers with tons of great material - for themselves. 

On my creative highway, I've been crying because of: 1) an empty canvas 2) not having a canvas 3) painting too beautiful 4) I just gave it all and there's no more to give (to anyone, ever!). This was only a shortlist.

So do I work because I'm afraid?

Yes and no. 

Fear comes in, when there's something ahead you don't know yet. And in creativity, you work in a field of not knowing **** anything! It's amazing and scary at the same time. The emptiness of a canvas: there's nothing on it. Things that you are just about to create, they have never been around. They come here the first time ever. That's were amazing is. Say "welcome stranger" really gently, and then start. Create your thing.

That's why it's called "the present" 

I continue by quoting Kung fu Panda movies: "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery - but today is a gift. That's why it's called the present."

My process of painting is based on focusing in the present moment. In that moment, there is no fear, there's nothing. Pure intention, allowing things to be revealed. That's it. Any efforts of trying to accomplish something special are dead ends. Some of my works come with texts as well. 

In addition to my amazingly scary artistic work, I work with clients helping them to find more creativity, ease and more ways to live a meaningful life. I love giving lectures, too. 

(Text edited and stolen from the About-section)